Like this:

This morning I have found myself off track from my game plan for the day even before I get started. Procrastinating and doing a number of things that aren’t going to get me the top priority outcomes that I say I want.

Sure some are daily tasks that surely need doing (but could wait), some are recreationally enjoyable like writing to friends or spending a quiet reflective moment in the sunshine (for far too long). These are truly very enjoyable while I do them.

I try to fool myself into thinking this is all good stuff and will make me feel good but deep down I know it won’t. I’m off my game plan!

And yet, here I am doing it! Does this sound familiar?

For me, this pattern of procrastination; of avoidance; is very familiar, much like an “in the moment’ young playmate that doesn’t really have my long-term interests at heart.

At the end of the day, the adult “me” will know I’ll feel no sense of accomplishment, no sense of pride of moving forward. Predictably, my internal critic will begin a barrage of “You messed up” negative noise or I may fool myself into a more nurturing loving belief of “It’s ok…you can do it tomorrow…no big deal, you deserved to just do nothing productive today” Either way…I rip myself off.

So here is my choice point – what do I really want, what am I truly more committed to in my life, right now. Do I want to feel good? Do I want something more for myself? What is that?

I get clear about what I want – that incredible sense of accomplishment, pride, of feeling good. I want to know I’m moving forward, using myself and my time wisely.

Now I start remembering times that I felt very satisfied and proud of myself for getting things done. I really begin to feel “it” right now, let it get bigger. Now, I want this vibrant feeling of aliveness, of feeling truly proud of myself, of feeling satisfied with what I’ve accomplished. There’s delicious excitement and fun and happiness there. YUM!

By this pint, that remembering, that enthusiastic feeling of “Feeling great!” it’s have me be excited again about what I need to do today. I am SO ready to stop this silly nonsense and to shut the door on any immediate gratification or procrastination conversations that ultimately suck the life out of me. Yuck!

And now I’m willing lean into my internal self-discipline and new found feeling of excitement, satisfaction and accomplishment. There’s a sense of urgency, of burning desire in me now, like being on a determined exuberant mission, it’s calling me to move and get busy! And I sure feel much, much better and it’s lighter, easier and exciting leading from this place!! And I want MORE of that feeling.

What do you want for yourself today?

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